Every few months, I start having passionate debates with myself about what I want to do creatively. A newsletter may inspire me to restart my newsletter operation. Someone on Medium tells the story of how she made loads of money using the platform, and I want to do the same thing. I think to myself that having a blog is a waste of time and that I should go back to a single-page site and forgo writing online and curating altogether.

I start making lists with scenarios and pro and con columns. I go back and forth arguing with myself about what is the best way forward.

What do I want most? What would make me the most fulfilled creatively?

It’s hard to pin down.